Im in love with this dude that treats me like ...a queen oh but not the type u see in a magazine the cuse me out and beat me then later say its only becuase i love u you know physical fene that still has me questionaning He loves me not he loves me tryna read inbetween the lines of what it should be tryna get it in my mind before i fall deeper into love sleeping in my lustes beauty waiting to unless the beast of failure because i was to stuck in my wills cellar block Gods will for mine like i was the bank and god was the teller i was in love with thine eyes that showed me what i wanted to see i was in love with thine lips that told me what i wanted to hear i was in love with the embrace from your touch and everytime i left your side i felt like a pies crust not worth much so in love with my own desire of sin i created a relationship with it and a relation with him above .....see every time you broke my heart so bruetly it was him i prayed to everytime u beat me senseless for the things that didnt please u it was him i cling to when you left me voiceless from crying all night it was him i brought my broken pieces to and again and again i run back into your arms as though love is hate and hate is love i search in you what i already get from above so why dont we just switch things up why dont the strenght of the lord become my pride and joy why dont i let the master fill this void you see God love me more than youll ever bring your mind to understand so no longer will i treat God like my 2nd man .....

thankful for you

i am so thankful ...thankful that your back in my life i cherish every moment with you good and bad ..iam thankful for your bad times and bad things because they have made you who you are im thankful for the strength in your eyes and the stride of faith in your walk im thankful for your manly ways to admitt your wrongs and make them right im thankful that although youve been through so much your goal is to make everyone around you happy although a smile on you face seem so far away to see your sis and and momz looking and feeling good will bless you just the same in you i see a sacrafical lamb willing and ready to give all it takes im thankful that through your wombs i am healed know that therre someone that understands me just the same......