RUBIES OR COSTUME JEWELRY

Have you ever watched the one you love fall in love with someone else ? Yes i have ample times but this last situation was over the top. There i was starring in his face as he smiles and say how are you. All i could do was smile back and say all is well. Because truly all was well despite the nights tears flowed down my eyes from lacking closer. As the undercover lovers( my two friends) both stared me in the face it was quiet obvious what was going on. They had a love connection. I know your probably thinking thats trifling"two of your friends". I almost thought the same thing until i realized how much i had grown. i had no hate in my heart let along jealousy or anger. There i was experiencing the very thing i never thought i could handle. But most of all in front of all our love ones pretending as if we never existed , that truly would hurt the old danielle. But i am new and God is to good to me to dwell on my lack. I have come to the conclusion that i deserve so much better. You see God blesses and adds no sorrow to it. So if your feeling weak, hurt , angry, or sad just know that is not of God. If he place our prices above rubies , why do we continue to let ourselves get treated like costume jewelry? I went home that night with a smile on my face because i know to suffer with christ is to reign with him. But the thing is to endure like a good solider and continue to show love no matter what. We are called to be the apidimi of love , which mean we must love even when people so called do us wrong.Then i asked myself did i really consult God about this person before i got my heart evolved? That is important not to jump the gun but wait on God through prayer and fasting before getting supper evolved with someone. But my main thought that cross my mind was this , If God is the one who took my ashes and made beauty out of them why wouldn't he continue to perfect me in his glory? why wouldn't he finish me? I am convinced that neither life nor death nor angels nor principalities shall be able to separate me from the love of God and if he is for me who can be against me ?? So who am i to let such littles get in the way of the big things God desires to do in my life. I will no longer let the enemy or self desires rob me of my worth and the things God has for me. SO I SAY TO YOU DOES YOUR ACTIONS REALLY SHOW THAT YOU KNOW YOUR WORTH? ARE YOU A RUBY?

Dont look at the giants in your life but call on the giant in the inside

Dear Pasadena

sitting in Mcdonalds in Pasadena where i grew up; thinking about how far i have come and the idea comes to my mind: images of damage and fake tragedies. The reason i say this is because i hated pasadena for so long because i felt it was nothing but trouble: I had the worst relationships , the worst haters... i even got jumped all surrounding a guy. deeply rooted issue that cause a traumatic reaction to this beautiful city called pasadena. But does the city deserve such blame? Had i chosen better friends maybe i wouldn't be so hurt? Or maybe if i never ran away from home i'd be ok ? Not so, i was a broken girl searching for purpose and Daddy love... in my eyes any love. It seems as if danger and false humility were answers to my cries a lot faster than God or even a true friend. I would not change my experience for anything in the world, because it grew me into the woman i am today. Dealing with people who just walked all over me , used me for money , and to clear an erection has taught me that i had no self value and no ideal that there was already someone who knew me and loved me just the way i was... broken and lost. That person died on the cross for me many years ago: Jesus Christ He allowed me to experience no parents , bad relationships, and horrible focus in school so that i could be a testament to what God can do. If you see me Now: i am nothing close to what i use to be. I know my worth , that of a queen . I no longer shall allow other people to project there perception on me ;nor accept the empty words that means nothing. In 1 Corinthians 10:5 it says to cast down every thought that projects its self against the knowledge of christ . so i shall not let my past mistakes hold me back or sit dormant in my mind. Because what so ever a man thinks so he is . i not only think but i know that i am Gods' chosen daughter called to do great things and i will accept nothing less. And you can change cities all you want but it means nothing if your still the same ole you. So i tell the Devil and the flesh: no more you shall no longer have rule over me...... And i thank every pass headache for allowing me to grow. No, a bomb did not drop and there is no tragedy because i am whole & safe in the masters arms never defeated

..... As i sit in Mcdonalds in pasadena i smile and simply say its time to reinvent my perspective on this beautiful city.

One of my inspirations

Silent Nights ft Chris webb

you dont know me snippet / vibe session (Crush & speaklife)

Lamp unto my feet