EMOTIONAL WRECK

What is this this feeling that I feel deep in my soul that is so ready to spill ? See …I've been here before you know , my heart for emptiness your expression of an even deal. why do I see unknown? Like a star that turns into a black hole that would explain the image of me, beautiful thing but scared of what it could be all because I cut control the feeling inside of me. Moved by every word that u speak , it was like u were put here to destroyed me impossible to train something u can't not identify love hurt pain so hypnotize Anxiety fear hurt happy sad all wrapped up.Im on a boat riding my emotions one wrong move and my emotions take over I keep stirring and stirring dodging every emotional ice berg ,fearing a tragic crash. Sinking into a sea of sadness im slowly sinking so my veins is filled with madness I try to rest but my bed is made of straight badgering trapped in my mind is the fear of being alone I would ask but the answer I seek is what I don't want to meet my feelings is so strong and if I tell u the truth and u let me down I could no longer hold on. I see myself as a grape that over time turns into liquor I once was sweet but being misunderstood has, has made me bitter or like a dime that fell behind the couch easily left behind or like silver tucked away I slowly lose my shine. See the battle begun in my mind I mis-communicated the things I valued see people never stop and ask me how I feel or Dani what's the deal? see it makes perfect sense to go on unnoticed to the world and think your no one when your emotion never leave your brain when the things u want aren’t there to situate. Lord I know u said don’t let my emotion control me but its way easier said then done trying to put it all together feeling kind of phony pretending not be just like everyone else fallen in to feelings of lust Trying to maintain but lord the bag is full and ready to bust I read your word because I know it’s so just but lord you have to get me out of this yes it’s a must seem to lose myself in the mere thought of a maybe escaping the logic of the situations see the right answer but afraid to face it learning that I can’t let my emotion define me because they could easily be played with tampered around inattentively letting my feelings being escalated my emotions is me and I hated .... so lord if I put all my emotion into u this feeling that I feel will u change it see what feels right can be so wrong when I feel I’m right here my emotions have me so far gone so is this just a trick of the enemy but lord u gave me these feeling u specially design them in me maybe if I was never expose these feelings they would still be unknown lord ill jus serve u until u make me over and these feelings gone